As promised to myself, I am sticking to this blogging every day thing, even when I have other things to do and truly just want to sit and not think about ANYTHING. Owning your own business is TOUGH! Everyone says they wish they could work for themselves and not have a boss and while it all seems great, it is SUPER HARD. We have been told that we have a “glorious life.” If they only really knew what all went on behind closed doors. Don’t get me wrong, we have LOVE and if you want to call that glorious, go right ahead, but I have this to say…. my husband comes home from work every single day dirty from head to toe, most of the time hungry because he didn’t get a chance to eat because he wanted to make sure his employees had their lunch breaks. He is seriously the hardest working man I know and it is really a slap in the face for someone to say “go live your glorious life.” If you consider glorious these things…..not paying yourselves instead of laying off your employees because they have families too, not sleeping at night because I’m either worried about how to pay the house payment or anxiously awaiting my husband to finally come home because he’s working super late to play catch up, because said employees that he chooses not to lay off don’t like to work late and don’t bother showing up half the time….lets see, what else about this glorious life?!? Looking out the window every morning and making sure your vehicle is still there because you know you just hit 3 months behind even though you made a payment last week, because the new billing cycle was on the 2nd. Having to come up with money to pay for the baby’s doctor visit and shots because you were 2 months behind on insurance and so they cancelled the policy……but we live a GLORIOUS life.
Obviously there is more backstory to the situation that we have found ourselves in, but that may divulge a bit too much information. We have been in business for 2 years, well we bought an existing business, and while it is a good business and it does bring in a good amount of money, no one sees behind the scenes what has to be paid for. Our main source of income had to be replaced because we were given a bad hand of cards, so to speak. So many things have gone wrong and yet we are still blessed to have gotten this far. I know “this too shall pass” but please be careful what words you speak to others. We were told this by a family member, so it really stung to be told we live such a glorious life….well, maybe it’s because we don’t want to worry others with our issues, or we don’t want our kids to know the struggle is REAL. They need to continue to have their fun and play their recreational sports like nothing is different, because that’s what you do when you are a parent…..protect your little ones, and that’s what we do. Next time you see someone who seems to have it all together, just know they just might have a little part of them on the inside that is screaming!!!
I’m keeping it short today because I got a late start. I had to handle some personal things from The Mommy Line today before I could speak to you people out there that haven’t read my blogs yet……maybe someone will eventually read all this nonsense and jibberish, but until then…
Pray for Me!!